The purpose of life is a life of purpose… You only live once, but if you live it right, one time is enough… Lately, well, actually, for a while now, many people I know, from acquaintances to friends, to coworkers and family members… I keep being told this phrase: “Live a little.” I’m sorry, am I not living my life?
this phrase has become more and more frequent, specially now that I’m in college. My freshman year, I attended one party. It was cool beans… Last summer, I attended about six. I mean, I think I had a great summer…… I don’t go out on weekends, I dont go out on weekdays… Man, I DON’T go out at all! I don’t go to the movies(once every three to five months, depending), I don’t party like that, I don’t have ‘partners in crime’ to go out and “have fun,” party, drink, or be mischievous with… I understand where everyone is coming from, except my mother. she just finished a fifteen minute shpeel on how disgusting women that drink or party are; that men love women who know nothing about the streets, are classy, and in case they do drink, it’s wine. Mom, I love you… Yet, why are you lecturing me on this? I do nothing but work, go to school, and stay as involved in my community and in school as I possibly can to maintain myself to busy so I will never have to spend a day at the house, with you or dad. Subconsciously, that’s what I’ve been doing, and now that I am aware of why I have been doing certain things, it hurts me. Have I really spent all my youth doing absolutely nothing? I do so many things that I’m not focusing on one specific; therefore, no growth is being accomplished. I’m delaying my success, not only that….. I have no social life… AT ALL. It’s so embarrassing to say something like this at my age of 18, specially with such a friendly personality. It just makes me feel like crap.. Total crap.
Now tumblebotsssss, if you excuse me, I have to go spend my Saturday night cleaning my room, or maybe on social networks, which make my life seem so fun and exciting, thus disguising this painful reality.

The relationship, from the outside looking in may seem harder, sometimes it may even seem like its all castles and roses. It’s not guys.. We now speak once a week on Skype, if we are lucky. Of course, the emails, Facebook messages, and wall posts always help, but it doesn’t supplement for his face, charisma, and energy.
Being away for so long is what makes these couples so strong. I was looking at military couples blogs and notice people getting married only knowing their significant other for about a year or two.. Sounds crazy for most of us civilians, but if you know the military life, it’s not. That year that they were dating and he was deployed, they spoke. There was no physical contact… You have no other choice than to get to know each other for who you each are, and that’s how it all begins. You both fall in love with each other, with the charisma, building strength, learning character, moving on with life, staying positive, and knowing that when you both finally are together, it’ll be an unstoppable movement.
Oscar and I aren’t officially together, but in our hearts we are.